Monday, December 5, 2011

Your horoscope for December 5, 2011

You are very organized and rigorous person, shan. You plan everything around you. But with today's energy you will be inclined to let the day go by without keeping to a tight schedule. After all, not every day needs to be a workday! You can easily be worried but don't let this get you down! Follow the people around you! They will teach you to see the world differently! You will even think about new ways to organize your life.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

what im loving DECEMBER 1st!!!!!

biscoff spread
ott pandora, shpongle
butternut squash
christmas lights
my kitties
red wine
running my worries away
good socks
maple nut candles
pumpkin coffee
metallic eyeliner, nails
sweater tights
thich high socks

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Your horoscope for November 29, 2011

Try not to see all the negative things in everything today, shan. Reverse this trend and concentrate on the positive. You will be picking up on subtle signals from others that can be very helpful as you gather data throughout your day. Keep in mind, however, that everything need not be a race to the finish line. Enjoy the spot where you are now. There is no reason to rush to the next activity if you are having fun right at the present moment.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

i have everything i ever wanted...or never knew i needed.
how can it be so good?
i am so grateful.
so serene.
at peace/
please dont go away

dont ever leave
these clouds around me are pure joy.

its a dream. i dont wanna wake up. is this heaven?

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Your horoscope for October 12, 2011

Capricorn woman, you seem to like to hide your feelings and your emotional needs from other people. You really need to be able to trust other people in order to share your feeling with them. They seem to have to guess at your deepest secrets. Yet, today you could save a lot of time in your love life, if you would just accept to tell your partner what you want out of your relationship, or even what you would like to change about it. Talk about it. Your partner is listening...

Sunday, October 9, 2011

I know now..

that i am a coffee/wine/hot sauce snob
we dont have to talk everyday
music is my life
i am a runner :)
i take a lot for granted
clouds are beautiful. all of them.

Friday, September 30, 2011

Your horoscope for September 30, 2011

Some failures that you may have experienced over the past few days could well have you beating yourself up today, shan. Perhaps you feel that you were too hasty, or too sloppy, and could have done things better. Don't obsess over it. Figure out what went wrong, learn from it, and then let it go. Too much negativity directed toward yourself is more likely to sabotage future efforts than to help them.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

i want it back the way it was.

we used to be free
he used to laugh and not worry

now hes under the clouds
struggling to breathe..

i want that light back..that smile, that smirk.
he's crushed..his fire and light is burned out.

will it ever come back? I don't know this person.
scares me.

saddens me.


Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Monday, August 15, 2011

august 15!??!

mini top down.
tempeh wings
tank tops
summer rides/runs
triphonic <3
kitty paws
birthday cake candle
good coffee
summer hair.
hot pink nails
green toenails
grilled veggies
good cheeeeeese.
pita chips
cliff bars
climbing hills
river swims
good toothpaste

Friday, July 1, 2011

Your horoscope for July 1, 2011

Things should be flowing quite well for you today, shan, so take this opportunity and use it to its full potential. Center yourself firmly on the ground and take a look at the weeks ahead. Where do you want to be in two months? Where do you want to be in two years? Now is the time to take stock in what you've got and plan for future growth. You have a great deal going for you, so don't waste your time on frivolity.

Monday, June 20, 2011

what makes me happy todayyy

goooood coffeeeeee
yellow nail polish
good wine
homemade nut butters!!
roasted veggies omlettes

Sunday, June 19, 2011

But at some point you start to realize your life is happening now. Not after med school, not after residency, right now. This is it. It’s here. Blink and you’ll miss it.”-Grey’s Anatomy

you love someone, you open yourself up to suffering, that’s the sad truth. maybe they’ll break your heart, maybe you’ll break their heart and never be able to look at yourself thesame way. those are risks. that’s the burden. like wings, they have weight, we feel that weight on our backs, but they are a burden that lifts us.
burdens which allow us to fly. — bones

When I see you, the world. It stops and all that exists for me, is you and my eyes staring at you. There’s nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The world just stops and it’s a beautiful place and there’s only you. Just you. And my eyes staring at you. When you’re gone, the world starts again and I don’t like it as much. I can live in it, but I don’t like it.I just walk around in it, and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again. I love it when it stops. It’s the best thing I’ve ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, is why I stare at you.

A Million Little Pieces
“Still I’m convinced, wondering ‘what if’ is the worst thing there is”

-Straylight Run

“Wake up. This is your life, for God sakes. It’s time to face up to it. You can’t get anywhere, can’t get over anything, if you don’t let yourself feel anything in the first place. It’s time.”- The Opposite of Love

“I believe that two people are connected at the heart, and it doesn’t matter what you do, or who you are or where you live; there are no boundaries or barriers if two people are destined to be together.”—Julia Roberts

“If you can find even one person you really like, you’re lucky. And if that person can also stand you, you’re really lucky.”- Calvin and Hobbes

Passion. It lies in all of us. Sleeping… waiting… and though unwanted, unbidden, it will stir… open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us… guides us. Passion rules us all. And we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love… the clarity of hatred… the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we’d know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow. Empty rooms, shuttered and dank. Without passion, we’d be truly dead.- Joss Wheadon

“And when two such people encounter each other, and their eyes meet, the past and the future become unimportant. There is only that moment, and the incredible certainty that everything under the sun has been written by one hand only. It is the hand that evokes love, and creates a twin soul for every person in the world. Without such love, one’s dreams would have on meaning.” –The Alchemist
We do not do what we want, and yet we are responsible for what we are – that is the fact. Contemplation often makes life miserable. We should act more, think less, and stop watching ourselves live.- Nicolas de Chamfort

My point is that you do not need me or anyone else around to bring this new kind of light in your life. It is simply waiting out there for you to grasp it, and all you have to do is reach for it. The only person you are fighting is yourself and your stubbornness to engage in new circumstances.’

-Into the Wild

“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.” -something.beautiful blog

“Live, travel, adventure, bless, and don’t be sorry.” – Jack Kerouac
“To live every day as if it had been stolen from death, that is how I would like to live. To feel the joy of life, as Eve felt the joy of life. To separate oneself from the burden, the angst, the anguish that we all encounter every day. To say I am alive, I am wonderful, I am. I am. That is something to aspire to.”

- The Art of Racing in the Rain

Saturday, June 18, 2011

bucket list

learn to dj
sky dive
travel the world
go hang gliding
roadbike 100 miles
hike the himalayans
maybe open a restaurant
own a shiba enu :)
fly a jetplane
model for something
have a huge garden
have a baby, one day.

Friday, June 17, 2011

Your horoscope for June 17, 2011

Take a time-out from your work today, shan, and relax a little. Let your romantic nature have some fun and don't feel guilty about not being as serious as maybe you think you should. The winner of the day is the one who can smile the most so enter this contest with the intent of coming out on top. The rewards will be long lasting. People you encounter won't be able to help but smile back.

Sunday, June 5, 2011
Your horoscope for June 5, 2011

Enjoy yourself today, shan. You have a great deal to be grateful for so give thanks. Take pride in all that you have accomplished so far and share your joy with others. Feel free to let go of the reins and sit back for a while and get comfortable. You have worked hard for a reason: to enjoy life. If you don't do it now, when are you going to do it? Take a time out and be with loved ones tonight.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

what i have learned from cold/chest congestion/loss of voice:
NOOOOO dairy
hot tea
TONS of water w/lemon
Singer's saving grace throat spray
blueberry juice
hot sauce

:) loads of veggies.

Monday, May 30, 2011

"I GET to see him/her today." If you don't find yourself saying this, what are you doing??


Thursday, May 19, 2011

things i know to be true

climbing hills never gets easier; you just become better at them.

relationships should never take away your true self and knowledge of you..but enhance it X10000000.

all vegetables are better grilled/roasted.

foam rolling works.

worrying is pointless.

wine is gooooood.

kissing is also good.

music is life. period.

good socks can make your day better.

as can good coffee.

hot sauce is a food staple.

always wear sunscreen.

bring mouthwash in your purse.

complaining is pointless.

tv sucks.

mothers are best friends.

mountains are the prettiest things ever.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

The Risk of Love
There is a risk involved in everything
Every time you share a smile
Every time you shed a tear
You are opening yourself up to hurt.

Some people tread slowly through life,
Avoiding the closeness risk brings,
Sidestepping the things they can not understand
Turning away from those who care too much-
Those who care stay too long,
Those who hold too tightly.

There is never an easy way to love
You cannot approach it cautiously
It will not wait for you to arm yourself.

It does not care if you turn away
It is everywhere, it is everything.
Love is the greatest of all risks.

It is not reliable, it is not cautious,
It is not sympathetic
It is unprejudiced and unmerciful.
It strikes the strongest of mind,
And brings them to their knees in one blow.

Even in the best of times, love hurts.
It hurts to need, it hurts to belong,
It hurts to be the other part of someone else,
Without either of your consent.

But, from the moment it overtakes you,
It hurts worse to be all alone.
The risk of love never depletes;
It grows stronger and more dangerous with time.
But, it is in the total surrender of all defense,
That we, no matter weak or strong,
No matter willing or captive,
No matter what, we truly experience love.

Despite the many things love is not,
Outweighing it all are the things that love is.
Love is surrender without a loss.
It is a gift without the cost.
It consumes your every thought and desire,
Every breath you take.
It is the fire that fuels you
To do more than pass through life;
It urges you, instead, to live.

No matter the outcome, having felt love,
You will never be the same.
It may scar your heart and soul
And leave you only memories of forever.
Or, it may cause every day of your life
To feel like there is no need for tomorrow.
But, love is worth it. It is worth the risk...

For in all of life,
Love is truly the only risk worth taking.



Kris Hydmore
“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.”

reality is better than my dreams <3

why am i up so early?!

I'm happy. that's all there is to it. :)

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

silence all around me
i am content
i laugh to myself

im at peace
even though i wont let myself accept it

Monday, May 9, 2011

just let it be
no questions
no deep thought processes
i will look back and wish i had
be in the moment
no worries about tomorrow
or what will fall or rise
whatever is meant to truly be
will be deep rooted through the torrents of analyzing

life is good B)

Sunday, May 8, 2011

" My version of falling in love is borderline psychotic. Should be avoided at all costs. Get obsessed. Can't fall in love and function at the same time. All-consuming. Tunnel vision. Euphoric."
Graham Norton

" I am in love - and, my God, it is the greatest thing that can happen to a man. I tell you, find a woman you can fall in love with. Do it. Let yourself fall in love. If you have not done so already, you are wasting your life."
D. H. Lawrence

Dance as though no one is watching you. Love as though you have never been hurt before. Sing as though no one can hear you. Live as though heaven is on earth.
-- Author Unknown

Do you love me because I'm beautiful, or am I beautiful because you love me?
-- Oscar Hammerstein

Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
-- Erica Jong

I have you. A lover and a friend. You are everything I need. You are the sun, the air I breathe. Without you, life wouldn't be the same. Please don't ever go away. And if you go, then don't forget to take me with you.
-- Basia

I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.
-- Ray Croft

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.
-- Kay Knudsen

Love is not something you look for,
Love is something you become.
-- Langley

To live is like to love - all reason is against it, and all healthy instinct for it.
-- Samuel Butler

True love is like a pair of socks you gotta have two and they've gotta match.
-- Author Unknown

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.
-- Sam Keen

Saturday, May 7, 2011

may 7, 2011

its happening
always there, always present.. lurking in the background
when i rise, before i drift
it melts over me
the warmth gels into me

every step
every breath
every glance/glimpse

all the beautiful things in the world are illuminated
glowing, luminescent
the lines are blurry but neon

in yellows and red
shimmering purple
all the spectrum of the rainbow

in my mind \
calling me
warning me tempting me..yielding me

let wait dont..
throw caution to the wind
you will never live until you do

wholeheartedly and truly

Thursday, April 28, 2011

hair that smells goood
choc. whipped cream
gooood coffee

choc. chip cliff bars
iced tea
sephora lip gloss

Saturday, April 23, 2011

lemon-ginger iced tea
fresh herbs <3
roasted veggies..

Friday, April 22, 2011

Your horoscope for April 22, 2011

An important aspect has passed, and you are in the process of reaping the benefit from it, shan. It was only a matter of becoming aware of and settling certain matters related to your need for social recognition. Don't be so hungry for approval, Capricorn. Every Capricorn contains a stern inner father, and can survive comfortably in total self-sufficiency. In fact, it is your greatest strength.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Friday, April 1, 2011


april 1. How did i get here? I have no idea, but i love it. I love how everything has unraveled. I love the mts, the riding, the emotions, the food, the music, the air, the butterflies, the earth.

I am so happy right now. I want to feel like this forever. :) :) :) :)

Is it fleeting? So many elements have to come together for this to feel so good? Is it that hard or that simple? How do we make it last in this short life???

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love. ~Author Unknown

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. ~Kay Knudsen

You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams. ~Dr. Seuss

Monday, March 21, 2011

new music makes me :D

so i have 3,000 new songs to listen to <3 oh, i need the time!
choc. orange truffle candle
veg w/u!
good coffeeeeee.
kitty lasers.
running after work. still DAYLIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, March 13, 2011

there is beauty in everything <3 just open your eyes.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Your horoscope for March 11, 2011

Once you have made up your mind, shan, it is doubtful that anyone will find a way to change it. You are set in your ways and you have your plans laid in stone. Having this solid base to stand on will allow others to support you in an extremely effective manner. You are trustworthy and predictable. Others can depend on you and know where they stand in relationship to you. Don't let self-doubt slip in. This is your time to stand tall and proud.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Your horoscope for March 6, 2011

Suddenly you seem more glamorous than usual, shan. You may exert a mysterious type of appeal that back in the 1920's was called, "it." Current and potential love partners may take a second look at you and be intrigued. Don't be surprised if you attract admiring looks from strangers! This could make a big difference in your love life. Lovers you encounter today should continue see "it" in you for a long time. Make the most of it!

Saturday, March 5, 2011


texting..gahh i am addicted!
climbing hills :)
covergirl lip perfection lipstick OMG!!!
reflective stripes on workout clothes haha
cottage cheeeeese!
wine. always wine.
nude flats/pumps :)
super strong coffee
pretty lights dj ;P
flowers! wierd ones.
peacock feathers

Sunday, February 27, 2011

what i am loving now!

hummus.....per usual!
new roadbike clips :)
NEW MTBIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pillon coffee!
surf laundry detergent hehe
pinot noir...always!
MUSCLES! Weight training!!
pastel nail polish
not caring what others think
meeting new...people :)
THE MINI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TOP DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
trance music...4EVER!
thai food
hot sauce
almond butter :)
sunflower seed butter
new mascara! L'oreal volumious <3
cottage cheese LOL!
climbing hills
roadbiking in the rain...somewhat ;)
farmers markets
clouds of asheville <3
no cable :)
myself. more than ever. i am stronger than i ever imagined!
my family <3

ive come to the conclusion that i love biking/running so much b/c it is so primal. I love the real pain/suffering...the real joy when the hill crests, the reward of flying down..the real hunger and exhaustion after. makes me feel sooo alive <3
Throw my cards on the table
Keep trying but I seem unable
To thread the simplest of letters together
To form the words
That I so need to say to you right now
I wish I could a wave a magic wand
And be somewhere else with you
with all this behind us

Under lock and key
It waits
Under lock and key
It waits for you

Throw caution to the wind
I guess I need something to believe in
Maybe I could tie these thoughts together
And write the words
That I so need to say to you right now
I wish I could wave a magic wand
And be some where else with you
with all this behind us

Under lock and key
it waits
under lock and key
it waits for you

Under lock and key
it waits
Under lock and key
It craves to be free

Under lock and key
it waits
Under lock and key
It craves to be free

imprisoned by shogun :)
Your horoscope for February 27, 2011

A lot of warm and loving communications could come your way today, shan. It could be in the form of letters or phone calls, or perhaps some post cards. Friends from far away whom you haven't heard from in a long time could keep you busy on the phone catching up. Relations with family members or a partner are likely to be supportive and intimate today. With this, your appreciation of those in your life may be highlighted.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Your horoscope for February 22, 2011

You may be frustrated by the lack of commitment from others today, shan. It could be that you are trying to make plans with people but they keep changing their mind about what they want to do. Perhaps they are emotionally insecure and simply afraid of taking the next step at this time. Don't let other people hold you back from your own life. Make your plans and stick to them. Other people will fall into place accordingly. You don't need to prod them to do so.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011


that is all.


Sunday, February 13, 2011

Your horoscope for February 13, 2011

By only seeing the negative side of every situation, you are apt to drive yourself around in circles, shan. It could be that your own lack of perspective is preventing you from being able to see the answer that is right in front of you. Your mind is your greatest asset - but also your worst enemy. Don't become a victim of its automatic lean toward the negative. Once you take control and start looking at the positive aspects instead of the negative ones, the answer will become clear.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Your horoscope for February 12, 2011

The key for you is to minimize your daily drama as much as possible, shan. You may not realize how much you are crippling yourself by the way you exaggerate every aspect of your life. Try not to give so much of your attention to things that really do not matter much. Petty jealousy and gossip about other people's lives are especially irrelevant in your world.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

I caught of glimpse of the future
I found a hint of doom

Tick tock the minutes they go
I should've seen the signs years ago
Tried to warn them it was coming
Tried to tell them what I'd seen

I saw the towers crumble
I saw the long distance fall
And I can see how you think I'm crazy
But you're the one with no sense at all

I want to believe
In the light of dreams
Place that we go
World that we know
In light of a dream

I want to believe
In the light of dreams
Place that we go
World that we know

And we lay in between
This life and a dream
In a place time to past
I should've known that it never last

I saw the people rising
I saw the great divide
And I can see how you think I'm crazy
But you're the one that tried to run and hide

I want to believe
In the light of dreams
Place that we go
World that we know
In light of a dream

I want to believe
In the light of dreams
Place that we go
World that we know

In this world
Cuz lost when it gets to be so heavy
How did they get the control
Is there any way we can go

Put my heart in your hands
Till you squeeze all you can
How you give me life to make me
Oh my heart can you save me

I want to believe in the light of dreams
In a place that we go
Beyond the world we know

I want to believe
In the light of dreams
Place that we go
World that we know
In light of a dream

I want to believe
In the light of dreams
Place that we go
World that we know

<3 wooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Your horoscope for February 9, 2011

Projects which you've been working on, either personal or professional, might be moving a bit more slowly than you're comfortable with today. You may even wonder if this is because you're not doing something right, shan, but this is probably not the case. This is probably just a normal lag in the energy, which should pick up again tomorrow. Keep at it, get done what you have to, and don't make yourself crazy over it. Go with the flow.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

wish i could bottle this feeling

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Your horoscope for January 30, 2011

The "significant other" in your life needs your support right now, not a lecture, shan. Let him or her know you are available to listen and help in any way, but do not smother him or her with kindness. He or she will come to you when they're ready. In the meantime, shan, take care of your physical needs. If your body is craving exercise, why not increase your jogging miles, or add extra time to your gym workout? Absence does make the heart grow fonder, after all.

NEW MTBIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, January 17, 2011

jan. 17, 2011

wear more of my clothes/shoes
use makeup b4 buying new!

almond butter <3 make at home

more strngth training

be happy about something everyday

Monday, January 10, 2011

run faster

20 miles/week

less sugar

spend less on crap i dont need

stretch more

roll foam more

new music

hula hoop classes

relax more

worry less

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Your horoscope for January 6, 2011

If you find yourself needing to do something in order to escape your life for a while, shan, then maybe you need to examine your life more closely. Instead of working on figuring out the best means of escape, work on figuring out the best means for making your life more enjoyable to live. Make sure you are happy with yourself and the things that you are doing. If not, it is time for a change.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

2011 goals

cook yummy food for work lunch

clean the mini more

stretch more

yummy candles more often

15 m/week run

detox from toxic people.

not let haters get to me

Sunday, January 2, 2011


soy delicious candle <3
almond butter
new INK!~
sigma pandora!

run 4-5x a week
no pouting/regrets. Move on!!
long hot showers
clean mini
dancing <3
wool socks