Running In My Mind

2012-02-16T01:42:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for February 16, 2012

Take your mind off duties and responsibilities today, shan. This is a time for your emotions and your ego to connect in blissful harmony. Don't let other people's problems get in the way of your good mood. There is a need for you to consciously let your mind and body sit at ease. Art and music will bring you a great deal of pleasure. Let yourself indulge in those things that make you truly happy.

2012-02-11T04:42:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for February 11, 2012

Things should be going well for you in the department of love and romance lately, shan, but you may find that today, things are apt to get a bit tenuous. While you may want things to be clear and planned out, it could be that your partner is longing for more freedom and spontaneity. Tension is likely to ensue if either party becomes too stubborn in their ways. More than likely, however, tension may arise when neither partner wants to take the lead.

2012-02-07T16:03:00.000-08:00

amazing
breath-taking
smile for no reason
be grateful, you have been given so much
there is no bad day :)
sunshiiiiiine.
dogs<3
kittties!
spontaneous runs.
warm winters. new hiking boots/trails!!
new music.
cooooooper.
butternut squash
sunflower seed butter
is it real? too good to be true.
make me believe
enjoy it now, its all you have <3
if not now, when???

2012-02-07T15:56:00.000-08:00

2012-01-30T01:40:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for January 30, 2012

Something unusual could put a smile on your face today, shan. Look for beauty and love in the simplest of things. If you can't see it there, then work on adjusting your attitude. More likely, your own inner state is what needs to be fixed, as opposed to the world around you. If you can shift to a light and understanding mood, you will receive a spark of laughter and romance that is sure to brighten your day even further.

2012-01-29T15:42:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for January 29, 2012

Today is a fantastic day for you, shan. Things are naturally flowing your way and you are able to accomplish a great deal. There are very few hurdles in your way - perhaps even none at all. You have a terrific sense of time and are well disciplined about what is needed to get the job done and how to meet your goals. Your emotions are especially calm and stable - giving you the opportunity to observe and evaluate them from a neutral point of view.

things i learned while dog-sitting

2012-01-29T14:55:00.000-08:00

I want one. Like, for my sanity.
i am way more compassionate/nurturing/protective/motherly/spoiling her rotten

than i ever thought.
what? where did this come from? haha i need a man's best friend asap. I love cats and all, but I need an animal that can keep up with me. :)

2012-01-26T01:45:00.001-08:00

it is all in your mind.. you can choose how the day unfolds
make it a great one.

2012-01-24T01:40:00.000-08:00

Your horoscope for January 24, 2012

Your heart is beating extra strong today, shan, but for some reason, it may not seem like anyone else is hearing it but you. You may feel like you aren't really fitting in with the energy of the day, but don't get down on yourself for it. Realize that not everything is going to go accordingly to your well-laid plans. Sit back and let things come to you. Unexpected things are bound to happen so don't try to resist the impending change.

i wish i could go with the flow more. Stop trying to plan and just flowwwww. haha.
I will! :)

2012-01-23T16:29:00.000-08:00

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2012-01-20T16:32:00.001-08:00

http://running.about.com/od/runninghumor/a/runningquotes.htm

10 k tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2012-01-18T01:43:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for January 18, 2012

No, you are not at the movies, shan, this is actually your life. Perhaps you can't believe your eyes, but it's time to say good-bye to your very rigid attitude about things. A little pleasure among all that seriousness and responsibility won't do you any harm. This day could help you to change your point of view on life! And how good this will feel!

2012-01-13T04:46:00.000-08:00

it will be ok...dont know why i struggle with accepting this! I'm happy and everything will be ok.
No matter what.
Stop thinking so much and just enjoy it. If you dont like it, change it<3

2012-01-13T04:42:00.000-08:00

friday the 13th happiness.

2012-01-13T04:40:00.001-08:00

2012-01-08T15:16:00.001-08:00

Shine Lyrics
by Younger Brother
Watch "Shine" Video
be there when I need a shoulder
when I need a heart
when I need to feel the beat
beat of my heart
let the road give me
.. to know it's the way
said I know it's the way
don't worry ..
don't worry too much
there'll be another day
you see some things still remaining
a lot of changing
don't dare stop changing

sometimes you shine
sometimes you fall
sometimes you know
sometimes you need
someone to hold
something that's real
never alone
until you can feel
the life in your soul

be there when I need a stranger
when I need the beating of my heart
beating of danger
take you the way you want to go
I don't want to show you
you can find your own way
find your own way
there's nothing written down
nothing here to tell you
nothing to tell you to turn around
I see you hating
don't want to see you hating

sometimes you shine
sometimes you fall
sometimes you know
nothing at all

want to see you shine, shine, shine like I know you can
want to see you shine, shine, shine like I know I am

sometimes you shine
sometimes you fall
sometimes you know
sometimes you need
someone to hold
something that's real
never alone
until we can feel
life in our soul

want to see you shine, shine, shine like I know you can
want to see you shine, shine, shine like I know I am

2012-01-08T04:16:00.000-08:00

Your horoscope for January 8, 2012

Your unconscious mind is very active today, shan, perhaps releasing old traumas from the past. Memories from long ago could come pouring into your mind as though floodgates were just opened. Many of them won't be pleasant. This is nonetheless good; you're releasing obstacles that these memories have caused. By the end of the day you may feel so much lighter it'll be like walking on the moon! Make the most of it!

2012-01-07T01:40:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for January 7, 2012

This is likely to be a day when you want to take the time to reflect on your successes. As your business interests continue to skyrocket, your sense of self-confidence and optimism follow suit. So do your relationships, with family, friends, children, and romantic partners. Your mind is also especially sharp, shan, and your own personal innovations should continue to progress. Life is good now, and likely to stay like that way for a while. Sit back, relax, and enjoy it!

2011-12-05T01:41:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for December 5, 2011

You are very organized and rigorous person, shan. You plan everything around you. But with today's energy you will be inclined to let the day go by without keeping to a tight schedule. After all, not every day needs to be a workday! You can easily be worried but don't let this get you down! Follow the people around you! They will teach you to see the world differently! You will even think about new ways to organize your life.

what im loving DECEMBER 1st!!!!!

2011-11-30T15:48:00.000-08:00

biscoff spread
ott pandora, shpongle
butternut squash
christmas lights
my kitties
red wine
running my worries away
good socks
maple nut candles
pumpkin coffee
metallic eyeliner, nails
sweater tights
thich high socks

2011-11-29T01:41:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for November 29, 2011

Try not to see all the negative things in everything today, shan. Reverse this trend and concentrate on the positive. You will be picking up on subtle signals from others that can be very helpful as you gather data throughout your day. Keep in mind, however, that everything need not be a race to the finish line. Enjoy the spot where you are now. There is no reason to rush to the next activity if you are having fun right at the present moment.

2011-11-06T15:26:00.000-08:00

i have everything i ever wanted...or never knew i needed.
how can it be so good?
i am so grateful.
so serene.
at peace/
please dont go away

dont ever leave
these clouds around me are pure joy.

its a dream. i dont wanna wake up. is this heaven?

2011-10-12T02:23:00.001-07:00

Your horoscope for October 12, 2011

Capricorn woman, you seem to like to hide your feelings and your emotional needs from other people. You really need to be able to trust other people in order to share your feeling with them. They seem to have to guess at your deepest secrets. Yet, today you could save a lot of time in your love life, if you would just accept to tell your partner what you want out of your relationship, or even what you would like to change about it. Talk about it. Your partner is listening...

I know now..

2011-10-09T16:04:00.000-07:00

that i am a coffee/wine/hot sauce snob
we dont have to talk everyday
music is my life
i am a runner :)
i take a lot for granted
clouds are beautiful. all of them.

2011-09-30T05:17:00.001-07:00

Your horoscope for September 30, 2011

Some failures that you may have experienced over the past few days could well have you beating yourself up today, shan. Perhaps you feel that you were too hasty, or too sloppy, and could have done things better. Don't obsess over it. Figure out what went wrong, learn from it, and then let it go. Too much negativity directed toward yourself is more likely to sabotage future efforts than to help them.

i want it back the way it was.

2011-09-20T17:08:00.000-07:00

we used to be free
he used to laugh and not worry

now hes under the clouds
struggling to breathe..

i want that light back..that smile, that smirk.
he's crushed..his fire and light is burned out.

will it ever come back? I don't know this person.
scares me.

saddens me.

:(

2011-08-16T02:21:00.001-07:00

http://www.oprah.com/spirit/Reduce-Your-Suffering-How-to-Have-a-Positive-Outlook-On-Life

august 15!??!

2011-08-15T17:42:00.000-07:00

mini top down.
tempeh wings
sunbutter
tank tops
summer rides/runs
triphonic <3
kitty paws
birthday cake candle
good coffee
summer hair.
spf
hot pink nails
green toenails
sweat
love
grilled veggies
good cheeeeeese.
pita chips
cliff bars
climbing hills
waterfalls
river swims
good toothpaste
sleeeeep.

2011-07-01T03:53:00.000-07:00

Your horoscope for July 1, 2011

Things should be flowing quite well for you today, shan, so take this opportunity and use it to its full potential. Center yourself firmly on the ground and take a look at the weeks ahead. Where do you want to be in two months? Where do you want to be in two years? Now is the time to take stock in what you've got and plan for future growth. You have a great deal going for you, so don't waste your time on frivolity.

what makes me happy todayyy

2011-06-20T16:10:00.000-07:00

goooood coffeeeeee
yellow nail polish
good wine
homemade nut butters!!
roasted veggies omlettes
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2011-06-19T05:28:00.000-07:00

But at some point you start to realize your life is happening now. Not after med school, not after residency, right now. This is it. It’s here. Blink and you’ll miss it.”-Grey’s Anatomy

you love someone, you open yourself up to suffering, that’s the sad truth. maybe they’ll break your heart, maybe you’ll break their heart and never be able to look at yourself thesame way. those are risks. that’s the burden. like wings, they have weight, we feel that weight on our backs, but they are a burden that lifts us. burdens which allow us to fly. — bones

When I see you, the world. It stops and all that exists for me, is you and my eyes staring at you. There’s nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The world just stops and it’s a beautiful place and there’s only you. Just you. And my eyes staring at you. When you’re gone, the world starts again and I don’t like it as much. I can live in it, but I don’t like it.I just walk around in it, and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again. I love it when it stops. It’s the best thing I’ve ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, is why I stare at you.

A Million Little Pieces

2011-06-19T05:16:00.000-07:00

“Still I’m convinced, wondering ‘what if’ is the worst thing there is”

-Straylight Run

“Wake up. This is your life, for God sakes. It’s time to face up to it. You can’t get anywhere, can’t get over anything, if you don’t let yourself feel anything in the first place. It’s time.”- The Opposite of Love

“I believe that two people are connected at the heart, and it doesn’t matter what you do, or who you are or where you live; there are no boundaries or barriers if two people are destined to be together.”—Julia Roberts

“If you can find even one person you really like, you’re lucky. And if that person can also stand you, you’re really lucky.”- Calvin and Hobbes

Passion. It lies in all of us. Sleeping… waiting… and though unwanted, unbidden, it will stir… open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us… guides us. Passion rules us all. And we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love… the clarity of hatred… the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we’d know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow. Empty rooms, shuttered and dank. Without passion, we’d be truly dead.- Joss Wheadon

“And when two such people encounter each other, and their eyes meet, the past and the future become unimportant. There is only that moment, and the incredible certainty that everything under the sun has been written by one hand only. It is the hand that evokes love, and creates a twin soul for every person in the world. Without such love, one’s dreams would have on meaning.” –The Alchemist

2011-06-19T04:40:00.000-07:00

We do not do what we want, and yet we are responsible for what we are – that is the fact. Contemplation often makes life miserable. We should act more, think less, and stop watching ourselves live.- Nicolas de Chamfort

My point is that you do not need me or anyone else around to bring this new kind of light in your life. It is simply waiting out there for you to grasp it, and all you have to do is reach for it. The only person you are fighting is yourself and your stubbornness to engage in new circumstances.’

-Into the Wild

“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.” -something.beautiful blog

“Live, travel, adventure, bless, and don’t be sorry.” – Jack Kerouac
“To live every day as if it had been stolen from death, that is how I would like to live. To feel the joy of life, as Eve felt the joy of life. To separate oneself from the burden, the angst, the anguish that we all encounter every day. To say I am alive, I am wonderful, I am. I am. That is something to aspire to.”

- The Art of Racing in the Rain

bucket list

2011-06-18T12:24:00.000-07:00

learn to dj
sky dive
travel the world
go hang gliding
roadbike 100 miles
hike the himalayans
maybe open a restaurant
own a shiba enu :)
fly a jetplane
model for something
have a huge garden
have a baby, one day.

2011-06-17T03:35:00.001-07:00

Your horoscope for June 17, 2011

Take a time-out from your work today, shan, and relax a little. Let your romantic nature have some fun and don't feel guilty about not being as serious as maybe you think you should. The winner of the day is the one who can smile the most so enter this contest with the intent of coming out on top. The rewards will be long lasting. People you encounter won't be able to help but smile back.

2011-06-05T15:44:00.001-07:00

http://www.bootsnall.com/articles/09-02/10-best-hiking-trails-world.html

2011-06-05T03:41:00.001-07:00

Your horoscope for June 5, 2011

Enjoy yourself today, shan. You have a great deal to be grateful for so give thanks. Take pride in all that you have accomplished so far and share your joy with others. Feel free to let go of the reins and sit back for a while and get comfortable. You have worked hard for a reason: to enjoy life. If you don't do it now, when are you going to do it? Take a time out and be with loved ones tonight.

2011-05-31T16:28:00.000-07:00

what i have learned from cold/chest congestion/loss of voice:
NOOOOO dairy
hot tea
TONS of water w/lemon
Singer's saving grace throat spray
benadryl
steammmmmm....mmmm..
blueberry juice
hot sauce

:) loads of veggies.

2011-05-30T09:37:00.001-07:00

"I GET to see him/her today." If you don't find yourself saying this, what are you doing??

:)

things i know to be true

2011-05-19T15:33:00.000-07:00

climbing hills never gets easier; you just become better at them.

relationships should never take away your true self and knowledge of you..but enhance it X10000000.

all vegetables are better grilled/roasted.

foam rolling works.

worrying is pointless.

wine is gooooood.

kissing is also good.

music is life. period.

good socks can make your day better.

as can good coffee.

hot sauce is a food staple.

always wear sunscreen.

bring mouthwash in your purse.

complaining is pointless.

tv sucks.

mothers are best friends.

mountains are the prettiest things ever.

2011-05-17T17:39:00.001-07:00

The Risk of Love
There is a risk involved in everything
Every time you share a smile
Every time you shed a tear
You are opening yourself up to hurt.

Some people tread slowly through life,
Avoiding the closeness risk brings,
Sidestepping the things they can not understand
Turning away from those who care too much-
Those who care stay too long,
Those who hold too tightly.

There is never an easy way to love
You cannot approach it cautiously
It will not wait for you to arm yourself.

It does not care if you turn away
It is everywhere, it is everything.
Love is the greatest of all risks.

It is not reliable, it is not cautious,
It is not sympathetic
It is unprejudiced and unmerciful.
It strikes the strongest of mind,
And brings them to their knees in one blow.

Even in the best of times, love hurts.
It hurts to need, it hurts to belong,
It hurts to be the other part of someone else,
Without either of your consent.

But, from the moment it overtakes you,
It hurts worse to be all alone.
The risk of love never depletes;
It grows stronger and more dangerous with time.
But, it is in the total surrender of all defense,
That we, no matter weak or strong,
No matter willing or captive,
No matter what, we truly experience love.

Despite the many things love is not,
Outweighing it all are the things that love is.
Love is surrender without a loss.
It is a gift without the cost.
It consumes your every thought and desire,
Every breath you take.
It is the fire that fuels you
To do more than pass through life;
It urges you, instead, to live.

No matter the outcome, having felt love,
You will never be the same.
It may scar your heart and soul
And leave you only memories of forever.
Or, it may cause every day of your life
To feel like there is no need for tomorrow.
But, love is worth it. It is worth the risk...

For in all of life,
Love is truly the only risk worth taking.

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2011-05-17T02:44:00.001-07:00

“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.”

2011-05-17T02:00:00.000-07:00

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21073097/ns/health-fitness/t/moved-tears-workouts-waterworks/

reality is better than my dreams <3

why am i up so early?!

I'm happy. that's all there is to it. :)

2011-05-10T01:57:00.000-07:00

silence all around me
i am content
i laugh to myself

im at peace
even though i wont let myself accept it

2011-05-09T02:40:00.000-07:00

just let it be
no questions
no deep thought processes
i will look back and wish i had
be in the moment
no worries about tomorrow
or what will fall or rise
whatever is meant to truly be
will be deep rooted through the torrents of analyzing

life is good B)

2011-05-08T15:55:00.001-07:00

" My version of falling in love is borderline psychotic. Should be avoided at all costs. Get obsessed. Can't fall in love and function at the same time. All-consuming. Tunnel vision. Euphoric."
Graham Norton

" I am in love - and, my God, it is the greatest thing that can happen to a man. I tell you, find a woman you can fall in love with. Do it. Let yourself fall in love. If you have not done so already, you are wasting your life."
D. H. Lawrence

Dance as though no one is watching you. Love as though you have never been hurt before. Sing as though no one can hear you. Live as though heaven is on earth.
-- Author Unknown

Do you love me because I'm beautiful, or am I beautiful because you love me?
-- Oscar Hammerstein

Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
-- Erica Jong

I have you. A lover and a friend. You are everything I need. You are the sun, the air I breathe. Without you, life wouldn't be the same. Please don't ever go away. And if you go, then don't forget to take me with you.
-- Basia

I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.
-- Ray Croft

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.
-- Kay Knudsen

Love is not something you look for,
Love is something you become.
-- Langley

To live is like to love - all reason is against it, and all healthy instinct for it.
-- Samuel Butler

True love is like a pair of socks you gotta have two and they've gotta match.
-- Author Unknown

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.
-- Sam Keen

may 7, 2011

2011-05-07T04:49:00.000-07:00

its happening
always there, always present.. lurking in the background
when i rise, before i drift
it melts over me
the warmth gels into me
amazing..terrifying

every step
every breath
every glance/glimpse

all the beautiful things in the world are illuminated
glowing, luminescent
the lines are blurry but neon

in yellows and red
shimmering purple
all the spectrum of the rainbow

in my mind \
calling me
warning me tempting me..yielding me

let go..no wait dont..
throw caution to the wind
you will never live until you do

wholeheartedly and truly

2011-04-28T02:04:00.000-07:00

hair that smells goood
choc. whipped cream
gooood coffee

anoraak!!!!
tanktops!
bronzer
kittyface
choc. chip cliff bars
iced tea
sephora lip gloss
<3<3

2011-04-23T14:39:00.000-07:00

lemon-ginger iced tea
sangria~!
fresh herbs <3
climbing!!!!!!
roasted veggies..

2011-04-22T10:06:00.001-07:00

Your horoscope for April 22, 2011

An important aspect has passed, and you are in the process of reaping the benefit from it, shan. It was only a matter of becoming aware of and settling certain matters related to your need for social recognition. Don't be so hungry for approval, Capricorn. Every Capricorn contains a stern inner father, and can survive comfortably in total self-sufficiency. In fact, it is your greatest strength.

2011-04-21T15:43:00.000-07:00

http://www.nytimes.com/2011/02/14/health/nutrition/14recipehealth.html?_r=1&ref=recipesforhealth

http://wine.about.com/od/howwineismade/r/lowsugarsangria.htm

http://www.branappetit.com/2010/05/12/nutella-marbled-banana-bread/

http://simple-nourished-living.com/2009/recipes/dessert/easy-blueberry-cheesecake-bars/

http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Spinach-and-Mushroom-Frittata/Detail.aspx

life

2011-04-01T16:53:00.000-07:00

april 1. How did i get here? I have no idea, but i love it. I love how everything has unraveled. I love the mts, the riding, the emotions, the food, the music, the air, the butterflies, the earth.

I am so happy right now. I want to feel like this forever. :) :) :) :)

Is it fleeting? So many elements have to come together for this to feel so good? Is it that hard or that simple? How do we make it last in this short life???

2011-03-23T01:58:00.001-07:00

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love. ~Author Unknown

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. ~Kay Knudsen

You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams. ~Dr. Seuss

new music makes me :D

2011-03-21T01:50:00.001-07:00

so i have 3,000 new songs to listen to <3 oh, i need the time!
SPRING!!!!
choc. orange truffle candle
veg w/u!
eggs!
good coffeeeeee.
kitty lasers.
sangria
mojitos!!
feel?!?!!
running after work. still DAYLIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
happiness!

2011-03-13T17:35:00.001-07:00

there is beauty in everything <3 just open your eyes.

2011-03-13T05:11:00.000-07:00

2011-03-13T05:06:00.000-07:00

2011-03-11T04:10:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for March 11, 2011

Once you have made up your mind, shan, it is doubtful that anyone will find a way to change it. You are set in your ways and you have your plans laid in stone. Having this solid base to stand on will allow others to support you in an extremely effective manner. You are trustworthy and predictable. Others can depend on you and know where they stand in relationship to you. Don't let self-doubt slip in. This is your time to stand tall and proud.

2011-03-07T04:02:00.001-08:00

http://matadornetwork.com/bnt/2008/04/17/10-things-to-learn-about-yourself-when-traveling-alone/

2011-03-06T03:22:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for March 6, 2011

Suddenly you seem more glamorous than usual, shan. You may exert a mysterious type of appeal that back in the 1920's was called, "it." Current and potential love partners may take a second look at you and be intrigued. Don't be surprised if you attract admiring looks from strangers! This could make a big difference in your love life. Lovers you encounter today should continue see "it" in you for a long time. Make the most of it!

loving...

2011-03-05T11:35:00.000-08:00

texting..gahh i am addicted!
climbing hills :)
covergirl lip perfection lipstick OMG!!!
reflective stripes on workout clothes haha
cottage cheeeeese!
avocado
suuuushii!!!!
wine. always wine.
nude flats/pumps :)
super strong coffee
reading
pretty lights dj ;P
flowers! wierd ones.
peacock feathers
muscles!

what i am loving now!

2011-02-27T15:06:00.000-08:00

hummus.....per usual!
new roadbike clips :)
NEW MTBIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pillon coffee!
surf laundry detergent hehe
pinot noir...always!
MUSCLES! Weight training!!
pastel nail polish
not caring what others think
meeting new...people :)
THE MINI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TOP DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
trance music...4EVER!
thai food
hot sauce
almond butter :)
sunflower seed butter
new mascara! L'oreal volumious <3
cottage cheese LOL!
climbing hills
roadbiking in the rain...somewhat ;)
avocado
farmers markets
clouds of asheville <3
no cable :)
myself. more than ever. i am stronger than i ever imagined!
my family <3

ive come to the conclusion that i love biking/running so much b/c it is so primal. I love the real pain/suffering...the real joy when the hill crests, the reward of flying down..the real hunger and exhaustion after. makes me feel sooo alive <3

2011-02-27T13:47:00.000-08:00

Throw my cards on the table
Keep trying but I seem unable
To thread the simplest of letters together
To form the words
That I so need to say to you right now
I wish I could a wave a magic wand
And be somewhere else with you
with all this behind us

Under lock and key
It waits
Under lock and key
It waits for you
Imprisoned

Throw caution to the wind
I guess I need something to believe in
Maybe I could tie these thoughts together
And write the words
That I so need to say to you right now
I wish I could wave a magic wand
And be some where else with you
with all this behind us

Under lock and key
it waits
under lock and key
it waits for you
Imprisoned

Under lock and key
it waits
Under lock and key
It craves to be free

Under lock and key
it waits
Under lock and key
It craves to be free

imprisoned by shogun :)

2011-02-27T04:29:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for February 27, 2011

A lot of warm and loving communications could come your way today, shan. It could be in the form of letters or phone calls, or perhaps some post cards. Friends from far away whom you haven't heard from in a long time could keep you busy on the phone catching up. Relations with family members or a partner are likely to be supportive and intimate today. With this, your appreciation of those in your life may be highlighted.

2011-02-22T01:38:00.000-08:00

Your horoscope for February 22, 2011

You may be frustrated by the lack of commitment from others today, shan. It could be that you are trying to make plans with people but they keep changing their mind about what they want to do. Perhaps they are emotionally insecure and simply afraid of taking the next step at this time. Don't let other people hold you back from your own life. Make your plans and stick to them. Other people will fall into place accordingly. You don't need to prod them to do so.

2011-02-15T01:58:00.000-08:00

WOW!!!!!!!!

that is all.

:p

2011-02-13T04:13:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for February 13, 2011

By only seeing the negative side of every situation, you are apt to drive yourself around in circles, shan. It could be that your own lack of perspective is preventing you from being able to see the answer that is right in front of you. Your mind is your greatest asset - but also your worst enemy. Don't become a victim of its automatic lean toward the negative. Once you take control and start looking at the positive aspects instead of the negative ones, the answer will become clear.

2011-02-12T04:40:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for February 12, 2011

The key for you is to minimize your daily drama as much as possible, shan. You may not realize how much you are crippling yourself by the way you exaggerate every aspect of your life. Try not to give so much of your attention to things that really do not matter much. Petty jealousy and gossip about other people's lives are especially irrelevant in your world.

2011-02-10T02:44:00.000-08:00

I caught of glimpse of the future
I found a hint of doom

Tick tock the minutes they go
I should've seen the signs years ago
Tried to warn them it was coming
Tried to tell them what I'd seen

I saw the towers crumble
I saw the long distance fall
And I can see how you think I'm crazy
But you're the one with no sense at all

I want to believe
In the light of dreams
Place that we go
World that we know
In light of a dream

I want to believe
In the light of dreams
Place that we go
World that we know

And we lay in between
This life and a dream
In a place time to past
I should've known that it never last

I saw the people rising
I saw the great divide
And I can see how you think I'm crazy
But you're the one that tried to run and hide

I want to believe
In the light of dreams
Place that we go
World that we know
In light of a dream

I want to believe
In the light of dreams
Place that we go
World that we know

In this world
Cuz lost when it gets to be so heavy
How did they get the control
Is there any way we can go

Put my heart in your hands
Till you squeeze all you can
How you give me life to make me
Oh my heart can you save me

I want to believe in the light of dreams
In a place that we go
Beyond the world we know

I want to believe
In the light of dreams
Place that we go
World that we know
In light of a dream

I want to believe
In the light of dreams
Place that we go
World that we know

<3 wooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-02-10T01:34:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for February 9, 2011

Projects which you've been working on, either personal or professional, might be moving a bit more slowly than you're comfortable with today. You may even wonder if this is because you're not doing something right, shan, but this is probably not the case. This is probably just a normal lag in the energy, which should pick up again tomorrow. Keep at it, get done what you have to, and don't make yourself crazy over it. Go with the flow.

2011-02-01T02:41:00.001-08:00

wish i could bottle this feeling

2011-01-30T08:36:00.001-08:00

Your horoscope for January 30, 2011

The "significant other" in your life needs your support right now, not a lecture, shan. Let him or her know you are available to listen and help in any way, but do not smother him or her with kindness. He or she will come to you when they're ready. In the meantime, shan, take care of your physical needs. If your body is craving exercise, why not increase your jogging miles, or add extra time to your gym workout? Absence does make the heart grow fonder, after all.

NEW MTBIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jan. 17, 2011

2011-01-17T16:27:00.000-08:00

wear more of my clothes/shoes
use makeup b4 buying new!

almond butter <3 make at home

more strngth training

be happy about something everyday

2011-01-10T05:45:00.001-08:00

run faster

20 miles/week

less sugar

spend less on crap i dont need

stretch more

roll foam more

new music

hula hoop classes

relax more

worry less

2011-01-06T05:20:00.000-08:00

Your horoscope for January 6, 2011

If you find yourself needing to do something in order to escape your life for a while, shan, then maybe you need to examine your life more closely. Instead of working on figuring out the best means of escape, work on figuring out the best means for making your life more enjoyable to live. Make sure you are happy with yourself and the things that you are doing. If not, it is time for a change.

2011 goals

2011-01-04T17:12:00.000-08:00

cook yummy food for work lunch

clean the mini more

stretch more

yummy candles more often

15 m/week run

detox from toxic people.

not let haters get to me

2011

2011-01-02T14:45:00.000-08:00

soy delicious candle <3
almond butter
avocado
new INK!~
sigma pandora!

run 4-5x a week
no pouting/regrets. Move on!!
hummus
long hot showers
clean mini
dancing <3
wool socks
MT BIKE!

my favorite books

2010-12-28T16:48:00.000-08:00

world without end
the rider
into thin air
into the wild
the alchemist
all we ever wanted was everything
american wife
its not about the bike

Dec. 4th? REALLY?!??!

2010-12-04T08:43:00.000-08:00

https://mail.google.com/mail/?shva=1#inbox/12caff362e6af3ad

Happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

halloweeeeen!

2010-10-29T04:36:00.001-07:00

embrace the unknown
why not?
LIVE your life right now!!!!
eat it, do it, flirt :)

don't hold back
just dance
just be
life is good

we are so lucky
and free
concur that hill
come on
fly with me

you are beautiful
cant you see????
trust me

2010-10-29T04:34:00.001-07:00

People often ask how I stay motivated, particularly on my long runs - but I actually enjoy running. It makes me feel alive and free. When I'm running along the coast or through beautiful forest, I can't imagine anything better. Of course there are days (afternoons especially) when I'm tired and I think it might be nice not to have to train - but it's when you conquer a tough session that you were nervous about that you feel the best. paula radcliife :)

holy crap its almost november

2010-10-26T02:44:00.001-07:00

could be the happiest ive been in a loooooong time :)

2010-10-17T11:10:00.000-07:00

Oct 17, 2010
Things may not be sitting right for you today, shan, especially in the department of love and romance. You may find that your need to plan and calculate is disrupted by unexpected variables and stubborn attitudes. Stop looking at things as problems and see them more as opportunities. A negative attitude will paralyze you from getting anything done. The key is to work with what you have and make the most of it. Things don't need to be exactly according to plan in order for them to work out.

<3 sweet tater fries after beer drinking is heaven LOL!

2010-10-14T17:59:00.000-07:00

warm blankets on cool nights
hot coffee with pumpkin creamer
foam roller
new running shoes..and wedges :p

muffins in my oats

the cooper..always <3

randon texts

long hot showers
arm warmers

bliss

2010-10-14T17:55:00.000-07:00

in your life, in your life
this is what it all comes down to...in your life

make it worth watching

live the life you want right now

if not now, when??

2010-10-13T02:41:00.000-07:00

im free
do what i want
see what i see
you could be

we could be
i run away
you scare me
do you really

maybe..

fall

2010-10-11T01:56:00.000-07:00

hot coffee
comfy bed
cute car cute me
why cant you see

love to run
will conquor
all of it.

i can

boo=yah

2010-09-29T01:59:00.001-07:00

dance like no one is watching.. for reals :)

2010-09-26T03:42:00.001-07:00

Your horoscope for September 26, 2010

You may feel a bit more tender and vulnerable today, shan. Your usual aloof nature may be in need of some close company today. You are more than likely not too concerned with small talk or pointless banter today. You would much rather go deep and discuss things that hold greater meaning for you deep down. You will find that you are able to adapt quite well to the powerfully sensitive mood of the day.

2010-09-23T01:50:00.000-07:00

Your horoscope for September 23, 2010

Today is the beginning of a new period in which things are apt to get a bit tricky for you in the department of love and romance, shan. Adjustments may need to be made in order for you to remain on the same page with someone in terms of your relationship and how much you are willing to give. Lighten things up a bit and have fun. Too much seriousness will kill the mood in any social situation you encounter.

I am a beast

2010-09-19T11:41:00.000-07:00

I biked ox! Yay I am soo proud of myself. I always thought I am a runner..now I am a cyclist :)
Obsessed......in love...infatuated.....enamoured <3

love it all
the gear, the outdoors, the wind, the breathlessness..the climbing, the soaring, the animals..

my love.

if only it wasn't getting dark early :(

and getting chilly. but that means more cute gear ;)

2010-09-17T04:15:00.001-07:00

Your horoscope for September 17, 2010

The astral energy at play is asking you to take a look at fear. You are certainly feeling a deep desire to advance in an area of your life, yet you feel held back by forces beyond your control. You could actually have a deeply embedded unconscious fear of being ridiculed for your efforts, which is causing you to hold yourself back. Remember that in order to succeed, you need to be ready to fall down again and again. The key is to pick yourself back up each and every time, and keep moving forward. If you are unwilling to fail in the short term, you will not succeed in the long term.

Fear does hold me back in some sense. I can do anything i want, so why does it?
Scared of rejection? embarrassment? whatever it is, i will conquer ")

2010-09-13T01:45:00.000-07:00

Your horoscope for September 13, 2010
This is a great time for you to take a difficult situation, work through it, and come out victorious, shan. Do not feel bad about things in your life that are sitting in a crumbled heap before you. Destruction gives opportunity for brand new growth and advancement. Recall the phoenix who rises up from the ashes, and embody the spirit that makes the phoenix so powerful against all odds.

2010-09-07T01:51:00.001-07:00

Your horoscope for September 7, 2010
You are starting to come into your own personality and be more expressive of who you are, so don't make compromises at this time, shan. These next three weeks are a very strong time for you, so don't waste the opportunities that are coming your way. Plan a vacation for yourself in the mountains and make sure to bring along your best friends in the world. Have fun while doing the things that you do best.

2010-09-06T01:41:00.000-07:00

Your horoscope for September 6, 2010
Just because something is fun or exciting doesn't mean its bad for you, shan. Don't feel like you have to put the breaks on a good time just because it feels as if you aren't getting your work done. Your "work" today is that you go out and have fun. These are the doctor's orders, so take note. Go out and have a good time. The more you reach out to others, the happier you will be.
laaf last nite :)

2010-09-05T04:46:00.000-07:00

Your horoscope for September 5, 2010
Even though you like to have things planned out and organized, shan, you may find that you have to give up a bit of that control today. Understand that there may be a better way to solve a problem without having to go through the traditional methods of disciplined analytical actions. Feel free to take a more creative approach to things today and make sure that you allow room for curve balls.

i need to stop planning!!!!!!

2010-09-02T18:24:00.001-07:00

http://www.specialized.com/us/en/bc/SBCProduct.jsp?spid=52881&scid=1001&scname=Road OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fall i wanna

2010-09-02T01:48:00.001-07:00

apple picking
bake more
ride more ;)
paint more
cook new stuff

ride log!

2010-09-02T01:48:00.000-07:00

tues
ride
elk mt
12 miles
630 pm
getting better ;)